That old t.v. show The Prisoner, they had it right. A man is his own warden, he builds his own walls, forges the bars that hold him back. He can convince himself there's nothing he can do, no place he can go, no one...who will love him.
People look at me and see the above-average. Smart, capable, etc etc etc. But I don't let them see the chaos. I open up to someone and they're consoling, happy even. At first. But over time they start to see me as a freak.
Why? they ask. What can I tell you? I don't want to be like this, but I am.
But you can change. they say. Of course I can, and I do. But I don't know what I'm supposed to change into.
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